I woke up this morning feeling like I had been run over by a truck. Not that I know what that feels like, but if I had to imagine what it felt like I would have likened it to the massive aching body that greeted me when I opened my eyes. Getting older can mean different things for different people - for me it means that every day my joints wear out just a little bit more. Do I sound like I am whining? Well, maybe I am. After all, there are things I can do to reduce the stress to my joints. I could lose weight, I could work out, I could cut back on the number of hours I spend sedentary, or I could take a handfull of pills every day to cut the pain. I do not do any of those things because like many other people, I have gotten myself stuck in a rut and I am not sure how to get out of it.
There are those people who have the willpower of the gods and they can do anything they put their mind to. The push through every obstacle to achieve the task at hand and they set an example for everyone else in regard to just what one person can achieve. I often wonder what drives the individuals - I have that same drive when I start to dream about accomplishing a task. I can plan everything from start to finish in my head and I can actually see the end result. However, I either never start the task or I start it and it sits unfinished until I abandon it completely and dispose of the product of my mind. Why do I do this? I can come up with many reasons that are all legitimate when I think about my own situation. I guess that is part of the answer to my question - we each have different abilities and even though we may dream big there is always the risk of something stopping the dream. It could me a mental deficiency that cripples a person or it could be a physical reason. In my case it is both.
I deal with depression, arthritis, and cardiac conditions that often stop me dead in my tracks. However, I am learning that I can still accomplish tasks that seem insurmountable. I just have to go back to taking baby steps . . . or in this case baby bites. It may take me longer to accomplish something but I realized that I needed to continued to bring my dreams to fruition even if it takes me two or three time longer than someone else. After all, what is the hurry? The dream is alive as long as I make it so. I have decided that I need to continued to dream and tell myself to "just push through it". Wish me luck!
Random Thought: What if we all decided to "just push through it" and accomplished all that we dreamt of. Imagine the possibilities . . . No, do the impossible.
~Daemon
